I know the thought of leaving is premature, but it's a thought nonetheless. I shouldn't be thinking about leaving because I just got here. However, I have been here for 1 month 12 days and counting. I was curious how much time I have left, and so I made another countdown. I have approximately 8 months and 9 days until I have to pack up and leave the compound, then leave for America the next day.
I should be coming out of this honeymoon phase according to the missions book and everyone else's experience. However, I'm still in it I think. Don't get me wrong. There are some days I do miss people at home and I get a little upset when the Internet is Bleh and doesn't allow me to Skype. And yet, I am constantly reminded of my countdown. I only have 8 months and 9 days more for Ming Um and Opanowh to come into my hostel and play in my hammock and ask me to buy them one. Only 8 months and 9 days more to learn Garo and really feel connected with the villagers. Only 8 months and 9 days more to play Saturday night live games with the teens and hear them laugh more than everyone else in the world. Only 8 and 9 to take rice and potatoes for every meal and eat with the boys. Only 8 and 9 to listen to the guys tell me stories about farting until they fall on the ground almost in tears with laughter. Only 8 and 9 to say hello to YoYo, the cutest Manipur 3 year old ever and have her have no idea what I'm saying and vice versa. 8 and 9 to hear Gulapi crying...again and the roosters to crow and make their presence known. 8 and 9 to play volleyball with the guys and 8 and 9 to make the girls laugh. To sneak chilies and drive the motorcycle. To play "honey if you love me" with my director and give 5 worship talks to the congregation in a week. To have the garo children stare at me and all of satan's spawn animals attack me in my hostel. To learn Indian English and drink Maaza and Bourn Vita. To share more Jesus and be shown more jesus.
Ming Um, one of the funniest children alive, asked me one day when I was going to the nearby town for the day: Sir are you going home?! It was in so much distress you would have thought I told him his dog died. I quickly reassured him that I was only going to be gone for the day and that I would return in the evening. That was only after being here for a couple of weeks. The girls and boys have already told me I can't leave and keep asking me when I'm coming back. They prob ask all the missionaries that. I tell them I don't want to leave but that I will return to visit, at the least, in 3 years after I pay the government some money. They seem to be ok with that answer but at the same time not. They want me to stay and so do I. At least for now.
I'm very quickly becoming Indian in my speech and thought and ways of doing things. Eating with my hands more, using Indian slang and such. This, I would say, is home. And like most of my homes, I don't want to leave too quickly.
But instead of thinking about how much time I have left, I've decided to just go day by day and enjoy the time I have for the weather to almost take my hostel away. To enjoy going to the bazaar and putting on a show. To enjoy driving the motorcycle and making apple crisp in a pot. To sleep on the floor and use the restroom in an outhouse. To take cold bucket 9 pm showers and not shave. Just to take it all in. For im not sure what the future holds. I could go back to the U.S. and be unable to return for whatever reasons. I'm not sure. Do I want it to go that way? No. Will it? I don't know. And so for now, as my 8 and 9 gets to 7 and 8 and 6 and 7 and 5 and 6. I'll take it all in. Day by day. Step by step.
Oh Jesus come soon so we can all be together.
What a glorious day that will be.
Bless.